Motivation (:

Anonymous asked: are you planning to go see 'the beatles: the lost concert' film?

I’d never actually heard about it until this question. I just might! Love The Beatles!

Okay I have 70 days to lose 9-12 pounds. Hopefully I can stick to this and get back into regular exercise. I’ve been slacking a ton but not anymore. It’s time to finally get to my goal weight no matter what ANYONE says. I can do this! :D 

So a goal for myself that I am setting is to lose 10lbs in April, starting now. so 2 days earlier, but that’s even better! 

I’m really going to try to actually stick to this goal and hopefully it pays off. :) 

I’m going to start eating very very clean foods, with exercise, and I am going to start taking vitamins and such because I haven’t been and honestly I think it would help a little. 

Goal: Lose 10 lbs in april. (Getting down to 100lbs) 

Reward: (at the end of april) Shopping spree!!!! :D 

So I’m starting to feel like complete and utter crap. 

Today I ate MOSTLY healthy, a couple naughty things here and there but other than that pretty healthy, EXCEPT I ate too much I mean I pretty much ate every healthy item we owned. 

My stomach feels like a bottomless pit today and many other days it does as well. 

I was doing SO well…what happened? I always wonder. What is it that made me fall so far behind. 

Working out now I rarely do other than running which I regret everytime I skip it. 

So I’m going back to my calorie counting, hour-2 hour workout sessions a day, eating much less! Tiny portions like I was. Jumping around whenever possible. 

I have been maintaining my weight for the most part. I feel like I would have already been at my UGW if I hadn’t stopped cardio all the time, eaten too much, stopped counting calories…

So i’m going back to doing it again! I’m not strict enough with myself now and I hate it. So therefore from now on, 

I will not overeat! Under any circumstances! 

I will do at LEAST 45-60 minutes of cardio a day +Running.

I will keep a food journal so I don’t slip up. 

I will NOT let my friends influence me into bad eating. 

(Which is another thing that happened, I used to be the queen of saying no to bad foods but now I find it slightly difficult.) 

and 

Last but NOT LEAST 

I will reach my UGW or beyond that! By May17th 2012! 

I will eat veggies, and fruits, and lean protein. 

I will not eat bread or fatty foods unless it’s a tiny bit of nuts or something. 

I refuse to see the current number that’s on the scale EVER AGAIN! 

Wish me luck! <3 

Running a ton today :D I run everyday now and honestly, I can’t go one day without it even if it’s for only 5 minutes I feel like a fat lazy cow when I don’t run. I could skip cardio which I have been and it’s a horrible habit I’ve created. 

So what’s been going on? Well running has become a new love of mine. 

anddd, I slipped up, pretty bad. I realize if I hadn’t and I just stuck with what I was doing I’d probably already be or be half way to my goal weight. But this helped me in a way too. 

I binged! :O Holy crap I know right?! 

And guess what….

It was not the end of the world. I didn’t even beat myself up about it. I enjoyed it while it lasted, but I’m in a way glad I slipped up and had some not so good things, because when I woke up I wasn’t even hungry that’s how much that stuff effected me. 

It made me feel gross, so I went for a run :D 

Going to buy some more fruit, I guess the reason I let myself slip was because we’d bought so much stuff. Even though some had sugar, some did not, they didn’t have HFCS (corn syrup) which I loved and felt better about. 

I’m glad though, that I did it. Because it showed me how bad I feel when I eat that stuff. How horrible it makes me feel. which is good. 

Why is it good? 

Because it showed me how much I want to be healthy and happy and fit. 

so on another note I stopped counting calories. which is when the binge began. I’ve maintained my weight throughout that….pretty much week that I ate that stuff. 

don’t get me wrong. i still ate fruits and veggies! just not as much as I should have vs the sugary or fattening snacks. 

So last night I took those crappy foods, I mean some aren’t even really bad for you, but they have sugar or more sodium than needed. Because my mom would kill me if I just tossed it all in the trash, I measured out the serving sizes and put them into snack baggies with the calories and fat calories written on the baggie. 

it’s just so I can be much more concious if I do ever go after them again. 

So anyway, long story I guess it was. I binged, that’s okay, I enjoyed it, until this morning when I felt sluggish. 

Now moving onto exercise. 

I’ve not been strict on myself. For the past week I’ve been saying “Oh I’ll do cardio after dinner” Or something along those lines. 

I was even okay with not doing it at all! 

But with running, that’s a whole ‘nother story. I refused to not run at least once during the day, which is probably some of the help I got with not gaining any major weight. I mean I gained 1 pound but I’ll get rid of it. 

So I’m going to run a lot more. Actually do my cardio again! Eat more veggies and more fruits, kicking the crappy foods away. 

I AM going back to counting my calories. I think that’s a huge thing holding me back as well, is the not knowing how many calories I’m consuming. 

I’ve been also eating a TON of pecans…This is what happened. We got a 2lb bag of pecan halves. I ate probably a little over half of that bag in 3 days. 

Pecans have a massive amount of calories. and fat. Even though it’s good fat. Fat is fat either way you look at it. So no more of those now. 

anyway yep so goal this week is to 

-Run more

-Do 1 hour of cardio everyday for the next ((( 7 ))) days! 

-Eat fruits when I crave sugar at all

-Eat more veggies :D 

-Drink more water (been slacking big time on that one) 

Okay so! 

Today’s weight: 109.0

I’ll weigh in next Thursday to check my progress and hopefully to see some pounds shed :D 

Byeeee, Lots of Love! <3